Something happens to me.
I live alone. When thing got emotional, disturb or tense. suddenly i felt like catching an asthma, at first i thought it was a heart attack. My heart pound so hard that i could hear it with no artificial assistant and i hardly breath, like out of oxygen, the oxygen wouldn't come in through my left nostril and the feeling of uneasiness in my left stomach.
The first attack at 9 pm last two weeks, the second was on monday at 3.30 am three days after, the third, 4am on friday the following. The first occurrence i rushed to the nearest private clinic, after several test of ECG and others, the doctor said it was nothing, i went there twice and give up RM50 for nothing, no drugs given. The second and third i went to the ER of the government hospital, the ECG, X-ray and blood test also yield nothing, there 100% oxygen in my blood and the heart rate is normal.
The doctor said i'm physically healthy and advise me to stop worrying and socialize a bit more, go out, have some friends and do things together. I said i have been a hermit for a very long time and it didn't effect my health. the doctor said, that was before, now i'm already 30. The monday doctor gave me chlorpheniramine maleate 4mg, cold or flu remedy and i'm not catching any cold at that time?. the friday doctor have me drank a white liquid of gastric remedy, I ate 3 times that day? then talk me down to relax and discharge me.
When i told my colleagues at work, I have thought what they gonna say, 'If science cannot detect it then u dah kena buatan orang', Hahaha as suspected. I refuse to believe that, i think i'm unhealthy emotionally or psychologically. So i gave up a few things, politics (let others worry about the country) and solitude (time to share).